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I Have Felt the Same
By DarkAngelGirl

Title: I Have Felt the Same

Summary: Wesley thinks about Fred and all the loneliness and pain she went through in Pylea, he knows just how she feels.

A/N: All right! This is a songfic to Lifehouse's song " Simon" off of their CD " No Name Face" I usually do not like to write songfics but the lyrics to this song are very perfect for the situation.

Disclaimer: I do not own and am not connected to either Angel or Lifehouse.

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Wesley watched Fred from the staircase. Every time he saw her he couldn't help but pause and think ' she is an extraordinary person.' Not only special in the way that he liked her but she was very brave. She was extraordinary because she suffered so much hardships and still she smiles and acts strong. He knew one of Fred's secrets, he knew that she had nightmares a lot cause once he did see it. Everyone laughed, they called Fred crazy, made fun of her hiding. It really angered him but he was understanding. " They don't understand at all." he said " but I do, I've been there. She is brave to let people see, I could never do that." He sighed gently.

Catch your breath.

Hit the wall.

Scream out loud,

as you crawl,

Back in your cage,

It's the only place,

where they will leave

you alone.

He watched Fred longer. She smiled and laughed as she spoke with Cordelia. Wesley knew Fred was happy, she had friends that really loved her... he sighed sadly as memories of his childhood came back. He knew bad memories stayed with you. Fred's friends all know about her issues, Wesley didn't know what he would do If they knew his. He knew how the evil hunted.

Cause the weak will seek the weaker

till they've broken them

Could you get it back again

Would it be the same

fulfillment to their lack of strength

At your expense

Left you with no defense

they tore it down

Wesley saw Fred coming. She noticed him, " Oh hi Wesley!" she said.

" Hello..." he said calmly " Where are you headed to Fred?" She smiled sweetly " I think I am going to lie down upstairs. See ya." He smiled to hide his real feelings. That is the problem with a tortured past... you have to hide it. Or hide yourself, much like Fred he knew the comfort of hiding where no one can see you, or judge you. He loved her, he really did, why else would she be the only thing he could think of?

And I have felt the same

as you, I've felt the same,

as you, I've felt the same.

Close your eyes, or lock the door. Either way loneliness was good and bad at the same time. He started to walk upstairs. He had to go see if she was OK.

Locked inside

the only place

where you feel sheltered

where you feel safe

Lost yourself

in the search to find

something else

to hide behind

He was upstairs. He found the room she was in. He stood by the door. Hiding from his father as a child was so similar to this. He'd lock himself in a closet. Even once when he was eighteen, he just couldn't take it. He was so glad none of his friends knew, they'd probably think he was crazy. He peeked inside the room. Fred had fallen asleep. She was such a beautiful, strong, human. He wished she'd never been subjected to such horrors.

The fearful always preyed upon your confidence

Did they see the consequence?

When they pushed you around...

The arrogant build kingdoms of

the different ones

breaking them

till they've become

just another crown

She started to stir and for a moment he thought he'd woken her up but no... she screamed and he knew she had a nightmare. She sat up "Wesley!" she gasped. He approached her and put an arm around her " Fred... It all right" he whispered. She sighed " Not again."

" Does this happen often?" he asked. She nodded then said" Wesley, please don't tell them this happened. I don't want them to know!' He cut her off. " Fred I wont tell them." He paused slightly " I know you want to appear normal but you are so much more." She smiled " You're so serious Wesley!" He smiled sadly " Yeah, but I know how you feel. Like you have to hide from your closest friends. She accepted that " I don't have to hide from you... but, I must be so weak if the dreams keep coming!' He smiled " I have felt that way before but you just got to say: " I'm OK and keep going..." She frowned " and hide behind a front? she asked " hide away?"

He laughed "Only the best will fool our friends... but do we need one at all?" " No, Wesley we don't. This cover up needs to stop. What I need is you."

Refuse to feel

anything at all

refuse to slip

refuse to fall

we cant be weak

cant stand still

you watch your back,

cause no one will

you dont know why

they had to go this far

traded your worth for these scars

for your only company

" Sometimes..." she ventured to go " You're the only one who understands me" They sat close together. He laughed, " What's so funny?" she asked. " Nothing, just I cant believe I'm telling you everything that I've tried to hide" She smiled a goofy smile " Oh well. You gotta tell someone"

"Fred... I think no matter the things we go through were still all right" he said and he was right. Things went better for Wesley and Fred when they had each other to rely on, neither cared about labels on themselves,and they did find happiness.

Don't believe the lies they told you

not one word is true

You're all right

You're all right

You're all right